I Said What I Said: Reviewing a few meaningful tweets v1

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My friends and I had a good laugh watching the reunion show episode of RHOA and we mocked NeNe Leakes when she defiantly responded to Kandi’s rebuke, “I said, what I said…” So here is my, I said, what I said…

This song makes me swoon. I have had this song on repeat so many times. Because I don’t have a boo, I have a habit of attributing deeply romantic sounds to the only love I can associate that has the greatest depth I know. I also acknowledge that it is God’s hand on my back that guides me into the dance of my life! So I imagine him spinning me around and around…like clay on the potter’s wheel. His fingers romancing, caressing and molding my life. I am so enraptured by the rhythm that I haven’t even realized what has been peeled away and what new creation I have become. That’s my dance partner.

Wow! I mean what else can I say to that. I think I may need to write a book with that title. We cannot be afraid of the dirt in the pursuit of greatness. We cannot be intimidated or talked out of the pursuit because it’s a messy process. If hidden things are to be discovered, we will have to dig down in the dirt to find what is hidden.  We will soon realize that it was hidden for good reason.

I’ve struggled in my life journey with being comfortable knowing and expressing what I want.   Typically people perceive that as haughty, arrogant, spoiled, idealistic.   We are somehow hypnotized into accepting the minimum also known as “realistic” in the name of saving ourselves from the goblin of disappointment. The truth is I cannot be disappointed unless I decide to step away from the appointment that has been made.  Circumstances cannot cancel an appointment or an expectation.  I just call hope on the phone and say, “I’ve been delayed…I might be a little late getting there. But I will be there. Let’s move the appointment time.” 

I’ve learned to give voice to my desires and moreover, to rehearse that I am worthy of having these things and I am deserving of them because God says I am. That’s a very different mindset compared to one that says I deserve things because I “performed well enough” to receive them. Often times, that nagging discontentment in one’s soul is not because something is wrong, but rather you have the vision for what it should be.  That frustration is momentum to bring your life into proper alignment with the hope that lies within. The “no worries” part was definitely a subtweet because I found myself frustrated with someONE who was not giving me what I knew that I wanted. In that moment I decided to redirect my frustration away from them. it’s not their fault they were incompetent to match the need. Because I know what I want and deserve, I cannot be duped into a ‘knock-off’! Thus #noworries-it’s beyond your ability.

I remember realizing in this moment that everyone’s press and passionate desire to get into the presence of Jesus is sometimes misunderstood and misguided.  If Jesus says that I was naked, I was sick, I was in prison then the places where you are likely to find HIS presence are with the “naked, the sick, those in prison.”These unfortunately are also places where lovers of THE presence don’t frequent often enough.  It’s amazing to consider that the experience of being in the presence of Almighty God is realized in the company of those our culture despises most. So I had to really ask myself if I am really seeking the presence of God because if I am…He has laid out a pretty clear roadmap on where to find Him!

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