The scriptures recount the narrative of Jacob who wrestled with God. The account of this struggle reveals two powerful outcomes of wrestling with God (1) identification; one’s identity is reorganized, and with that the outlook on the rest of your life upgraded forever; Jacob’s name is changed from supplanter to winner. (2) a limp becomes evidence of struggle with God, and evidence that you prevailed. The limp is the result of being touched by God in the intimate place.
When did the limp become shameful?
Why should one be made to feel ashamed of a life limp? It’s amazing to me that when God wants to give you a sign and proof of a Divine encounter, Spirit leaves you with a mark of humanity, a mark of humility, a mark of vulnerability, a “weakness” of sorts. Can you imagine the talk of people as Jacob limped along ? “There goes Jacob. He says he wrestled with God and prevailed, but can’t even walk without a cane.” What if God inspired the limp so that Jacob might always be reminded that his mobility, every single step, required the AID of the Almighty who provides a guaranteed and steady support.
While the world clamors for strength (saying “BE STRONG!”) and tends to determine victory and overcoming based on strength, the Divine order is that when you are weak that is when you are strong.
Consider, when did your limp become mark of shame instead of proof that you have wrestled with life.
What I love about the scripture narrative is that Jacob is celebrated as the winner though his opponent was obviously stronger and ultimately unbeaten. You see victory and winning doesn’t always require that your opponent is devastated, obliterated, and destroyed. It does require that you do not let go until you ARE blessed; until you ARE transformed; until your identity is shifted from weasel to winner.
And people will ask, “Why did Cory get such and such…? Why is Cory eligible for such and such? What makes Cory so special that he has such and such? He doesn’t deserve that, look at his limp…” And heaven’s answer simply will be, “Cory struggled and Cory did not let go.”
I refuse to let others diminish my position because of my conditions. It is my struggle that has staged this very encounter with Almighty.
To you I say, don’t let people make you feel that you lost because you did not overpower it. Because you have scarring, bruising, pain or because your walk is a little impaired and your steps a little uneven. You have been touched eternally. Unlike the other cowards, you stepped in a ring to wrestle with an opponent who you knew you probably couldn’t beat. But that was never the goal, was it? The goal was not to beat the opponent. The goal was to endure long enough to receive the intimacy of blessing that could only be found in close-call encounter struggle.
Sometimes God designs the struggle just so you can get closer than you would have ever come.
Finally, I remind you that we win when even though afflicted, we do not let go. Your limp is not a dis-ability. It is when God’s ability transforms your liability.